J U N E L I M

On the 18th January 2013, I was so happy and excited to attend the One Last Tour of Swedish House Mafia at Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach. My heart was beating fast and I couldn't believe my eyes that I am actually there, LIVE, with THEM spinning their own jams. They were awesome and I will not get tired of listening and dancing to them. They even made an effort to connect and communicate with the Malaysians. Sadly, it was their first and last time together as Swedish House Mafia in Malaysia. I almost teared when I saw their faces on the screen (because I was short and at the Chill Out zone), couldn't believe my eyes and was so amazed that they were actually there! So here, pictures from that night.

Santa Monica Pier

Last year (2011), I was fortunate enough to visit Los Angeles with my family and get to experience the amazing culture there with real Americans. These are a few pictures I've found in my laptop that I would love to share. It's the Santa Monica Pier, which was a 45 mins drive away from West Covina where I was staying.

Would you look at this stack of awesomeness

I apologize for the random post title, but would you look at this stack of awesomeness made by my dad on a Tuesday morning!

Officially I am

being Charles & Keith - fied. Never thought I would own one because of how pricey it is, but because of a mad sale that my mom and I walked into by chance, she bought me this.

I know not many girls would actually buy this at first glance, but until you really try it on, you have no idea how comfortable and confident looking you may be. Also, the purpose of this post is not to brag or show off how I own one, but it is the fact that I actually own my first pair of wedges from a brand that I considered "branded" and therefore I am grateful.

Moving rain

I'm not the type of girlfriend that makes sweet cards and blog about everything sweet that my boyfriend and I did. But occasionally, for example a comforting outing with him after a messed up week is worth blogging about. So today, I went out with the person who could make my day whenever wherever. I enjoyed and loved every moment when I'm with him just as simple as being our goofy selves when we are together. Even though we do the usual, watch a movie and a meal then off with the peeps for a night session, he's one of the reason that I could inject myself with happy hormones. Anyway, to sum up the day, we had Japanese (which is my favorite comfort food by the way), watched Skyfall, had dinner with the family and "mamak"with the peeps after.

Of course, pictures...

Dear God,

I can't find any other freedom other than the one you gave me
What happened God, that I drew so far away from you
You can have my life again, take it from me
I thought that leaving you out of my life
Would make me happier and more free in the sense that
I can do what I want, feel what I want, and think what I want
But nothing of those meant anything without you in my life
I lost all my purpose, basically everything that I was going for
I don't want to end up with emptiness
Give me the courage to face you
Give me the courage to embrace you
But most of all give me the courage to love you
It's not of my choice to want you
The matter is that I need you
You could have throw me away but you still kept me around
Why can't I love you like you do, to me.
Help me, I'm tired of feeling this way.
I meant nothing without you.

At this temporary moment

While Explosion by Ellie Goulding playing in my ears, my head and my heart, the urge to break down is getting stronger and stronger, every moment.

What am I missing here.

I feel so alone, so depressed and so drained out all the time.
I feel so LOST.

I decided to just head out after being cooped up in the room for so long, and yet I can't find the reason to be happy, to be joyful about. I love being with my friends, but I'm so tired of talking, smiling, laughing, everything.

How did I got to this, why?

A told me to pray, I can't, I don't know why, I'm so stuck in this status quot. I can't bring myself to be free.

When can I redeem myself.

Dark Paradise

Do you know what scares me the most?

It is when you have a partner, awesome friends and loving family
and still feel so alone

It sounds like a perfect world with those people around me
and yet, I still feel lonely on the inside
That scares the shit out of me

It is not just scary
but dark and cold

And do you know what's worse

I slowly grow to like it even more
every moment I'm in it.